Day 10 - Part 1: The Roller Coaster that is Adoption
by Andrew JohnsonWe know what you’re all thinking - “What a vacation! They must be having so much fun!” While we wouldn’t quite characterize our experience that way, thanks in large part to our great sense of humor, we will definitely look back on this with fond memories (if it all works out, that is!). But this whole adoption road has been such a roller coaster and today was the epitome of that notion. For the past few days, little things have been happening that seemed to undermine the confidence we had with this adoption. We have not had the constant contact with the birthmother we had when we first got here. Things weren’t happening like we envisioned - or even agreed upon. Your mind starts to envision the worst as things start to indicate that she’s changed her mind. We have to keep reminding ourselves of the logical, not let our worst fears get the better of us. It came to a head today when we were at our lowest, convinced we had been scammed and actually thought about packing up and going home - not an exaggeration. We probably felt as low as we did right after Atlanta. We don’t care what anyone says - this open adoption route, while having many, many benefits is also a very difficult road. But with this particular match, just when we’re at our lowest, something positive seems to happen to turn it around. To make a long story short, one our “angels” (we refer to them as “Deep Throat” - the Watergate one, not that other one! - and we can elaborate later on what we mean) came through to turn things around when no one else had any luck. The pendulum swings back in a matter of minutes. Talk about exhausting! We’re still very skeptical, but we unpack our bags.
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